[73] - [Voice]

[doctor_j_crane]

Dr Jonathan Crane. [A pause.] I would be particularly interested in individuals that used to be on the barge, if any of you are out there.

Comments

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

I can't say that I'm surprised. I just thought that you should know.

Otherwise, things have been much the same here.

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

And with you? How are you?

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

I like to think that my barge survival skills are improving. I also have yet another new warden.

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

Another one? Anyone I would know?

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

Iago. He killed me recently before graduating and becoming a warden. As you can imagine, I am not pleased.

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

Oh.

My dear Jonathan...you must continue as you were. Prove to him that you can graduate. You have been minding yourself lately, haven't you?

[Private]

[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

I have. I don't know how I can prove it to him. If graduation is based on his judgment, due to our history it's very likely he'll never think that I'm ready.

[Private]

[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

Be a better person than him, Jonathan. If he wishes to be petty, then be strong against it. Soon, hopefully, he will tire of games and graduate you to keep from being bored.

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

You're right. There's little point in stooping to his level. I'd only be wasting my own time.

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

Exactly. So why are you even attempting it?

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

Frustration. Resentment. Petty, unhelpful emotions.

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

My dear Jonathan, those emotions are helpful.

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

In what way are they helpful?

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

By letting you know what something means to you. Frustrating because you want to leave, don't you? Resentment because others have left that you felt unworthy of leaving.

Am I close?

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

You're close. I sometimes wonder why you're not a warden on the barge. You'd be better than any of these people.

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

I'm a teacher, if you've forgotten.

But I've things to do here.

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

I know. And honestly, you'd have to be insane to willingly come back here.

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

I would come back for you. But now that Howie has left, I truly have no reason to return.

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

I understand. You need to live your life.

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

I do wish you could come here.

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

It's an impossible thing to wish for, sadly.

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

As impossible as your graduation?

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

Do you think that my graduating is impossible?

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[preachyrose.livejournal.com]

No, but I think you are beginning to believe that.

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[doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com]

I certainly used to. It might be impossible with Iago as my warden.