doctor_j_crane | [58]

I'm not going to talk about what happened during the flood. Deal with it.

[Pause, before continuing on.] And you know what else? I'm done. I'm finished with this wider barge program. I officially do not care about what any other warden does except my own. Almost none of you deserve to be a warden. You victimize your inmates, you victimize other inmates. You victimize each other. Whatever the Admiral is offering you? You don't deserve it. You negated your right to receive it as soon as you stopped doing your job. I may be "crazy", as so many of you like to tell me to my face, but at least I know exactly what I am and what I've done. All of you might like to have a good long look in the mirror and then a good long look at your inmate. Because for most of you? There isn't much of a difference.

I'm not going to highlight who this doesn't apply to. You know who you are.

[Private - Eames]

Do you want a full detailed write up or a summary? Because I feel like that flood severely impaired my ability to coherently deal with people for a while there.

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From:

doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com

You're a warden. Life can't be that hard.

From:

bigbad

[There's a moment of silence. When Spike speaks again, his voice is dark.]

If being an inmate here is the worst thing ever to have happened to you, then I envy you.

From:

doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com

I've been here for over a year. I've died twice. Don't tell me that this isn't a horrific place to live in. Because it is.

From:

bigbad

I died twice before I showed up here. I've been tortured repeatedly, been to hell and back, blown up, been stabbed, shot, sliced, burnt, you name it, watched the woman I love die, watched the other woman I love betray me repeatedly, been scorned and laughed at and despised by people I cared about, been mind controlled, been a ghost, been experimented on by government wankers, and been forced to sing in public.

And yeah, that's all before I stepped foot on the Barge. Where I've died twice more and been through just as much as the average inmate. So yeah, it's a horrific place to live. Boo hoo, I've survived worse.

From:

doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com

Oh, of course. Because you had a terrible and likely fictional time the rest of us have to like in equal misery. I should have realized.

From:

bigbad

Are you always this much of a moron?

From:

doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com

I'm not. But your denial is rather endearing.

From:

bigbad

If I handed you a biscuit you'd start whinging about how it meant I thought you shouldn't have ice cream. I'll say this once, and then I'm bloody done. God knows I've got enough to worry about without hearing you weep about how I want your life to be hard.

I don't give a damn whether you're happy or miserable. You're not my inmate or my friend. Just a bloke that I don't know that well and don't much like at that. Do I think you're going to suffer more? Yeah, probably. Do I think you deserve it? Hell if I know. I don't think it makes much of a difference in the end. Only way you can avoid it is by refusing to live at all, and that might be safer, but it's also a lot less interesting.

That's my opinion on your suffering, which had nothing to do with what I was talking about. You were nattering on about how being an inmate here was the absolute worst fate anyone could ever have and how as a warden, my life had to be bloody perfect. I was telling you otherwise. Do try and keep up.

From:

doctor-j-crane.livejournal.com

I fail to see how your life isn't at the very least a vast improvement on the sad state of affairs that you spoke about before. Bar floods, ports and the occasional inmate rampage, you're doing pretty well. You have the power to ask the Admiral for whatever you want. Most of you have supernatural powers. You can stay here indefinitely, you can choose to go home. You get some sort of grand reward at the end of it. It's not "perfect", as you say, but it looks pretty good from my end of things.